But I am enjoying being pregnant. The start of school was very hectic, and I’m finding that 4 weeks into the semester things are calming down somewhat and I’m getting into a routine. Already I’m affected by Baby Fidler in that I can’t stay up too late and I have to have regular meals; two limitations that make me have to plan ahead (so… those are great for when I plan ahead, bad news for when I’m too “busy”). My goals are to get everything ready & set up prior to Ethan’s arrival. It’s amazing how that most of the time little Ethan is all I’m thinking about, and if something else forces my attention, Baby Ethan is still 50% in my thoughts. I haven’t been this infatuated with something since falling in love with Andrew!
The baby is really Ethan to me. But what if he comes out and he doesn’t look like an Ethan? What if, by the 10% chance, it’s a girl? Being pregnant is amazing in that it really requires a control freak like myself to just sit back and try to be patient.
I can regularly feel the baby kick (to the point if I don’t feel him I worry something is awry). And, on the intense kicks you can feel them from the outside. Andrew found this underwhelming but I thought it to be incredibly cool. This week (or next week– depending on which calendar & which midwife you ask) I will officially enter my 3rd trimester; the homestretch! At my 20 week ultrasound they said my due date might now be Dec. 28th… so I’m in the range of Dec. 28-Jan. 4th, though really once I get my final grades turned in (Dec. 21st), I’ll be happy!
I am planning on a natural birth at St. Luke’s hospital with a midwife & doula (and Andrew!). Truthfully, birthing naturally is not soley to prevent the drug interaction with the baby (though you should watch the film The Business of Being Born) as much as the selfish reason that I want to feel the endorphin rush after the delivery; a sensation women can have only after a natural birth. I also want to see if I’m strong enough… [so no horror stories of other births, please! I'm thinking positive!]
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September 16, 2008 at 7:29 pm
Nat
My sister had three water births and all four of hers were natural. She loved it. If you want to talk positive birthday experiences, she’s the one to talk to.
October 4, 2008 at 8:32 pm
Jerri
You can totally do it, Amy! I just found your blog. I’m so glad you have one and can’t wait to hear more about the pregnancy. Our birth experience, as I told you, was exactly like what you’re hoping for and I’m just here to encourage you and let you know that YOU CAN do it! It is possible and birth is powerful, not painful! I hope it works out the way you want, but don’t make yourself feel bad if it doesn’t. Just trust your body and it will do what it needs to help little Ethan come along. How exciting you already chose a name and know what you’re having! That’s crazy! Best wishes to you!